I woke up screaming at the top of my lungs the other night from a nightmare but I can’t even remember what it was about. The entire household was awaken from my bellow but I was still somewhat out of it. To me it sounded like a faint peep so I didn’t pay any mind but Gwen was in the room and she was shaking me and asking if I was alright, I moaned “yes”, and dozed back off. That was the first time I have ever done anything like that, I don’t even talk in my sleep. There was a spider, that much I can remember but the rest is completely void. I’ve been having nightmares steadily for the past two months but I can never remember them. I’ll wake up in the morning freezing because I am covered in sweat and the fan is blowing directly on me. An uneasy feeling consumes me but the dream itself is a mystery. I’ve also been waking up in the middle of the night from an asthma attack, and I’m thinking that this might be connected with the nightmares. Sleep is no longer pleasant.
August 23, 1999